Finding me..

Finding me..

I am in a room
looking the monitor.
my fingers in the keyboard
hearing no sound
except the rhythmic sound,
from the fan that fitted in the wall,
feeling artificial wind of air,
thinking of from where,
from where to start
don't even know whether to start
or not, but
I'm still looking in the monitor
and still allowing my fingers
to do their job
really I don't even know
whether to start or not,
but I know that-
this is my first post
and came here for that
for what I am looking for,
for what I was looking for,
for years, that I didn't find it yet,
so I decide, I need to..
I need to start,
to start it right now
because i know I'm in search of,
in search of what I was for years
yes, I need to..
yes, I need to find myself
I am not sure I will succeed
but I need to start
so do I start..
I'm in search of finding myself
I'm in search of finding me....